uhmm so….
Over the post almost three months I have been constantly asked as to why I haven’t bothered to update the blog. The many comments left here and the post that was written by Mr. R(thank you, yet again, I have never been more flattered!!!) were very flattering and rather encouraging and I do admit that there have been a couple of attempts to write a decent enough post within this period.But somewhere in the middle, I would lose the flow,forget the words and the draft would just sound too mundane and tedious to my own self.
So, the answer whenever someone asked as to why I don’t blog much anymore was something along the lines of “I dont know men, I guess I just don’t know what to say anymore, I don’t have the time or the peace of mind to blog….”, which is rather ironic because that statement defies the whole reason as to why I started hotchocolate in the first place.(Many of my posts are written when my mind is not at peace.)One of the main reasons I got inot blogging a little under a one and a half years ago was because I needed a non human outlet to vent at all the idiosyncrasies of the world that I lived in,I had a need to tell the world about I saw and what I thought about things(immature as they may seem in retrospect) and lastly blogging gave me an opputunity to revive my quickly-dying ability to write well.
Maybe now the charm of it is wearing off, or maybe I just cant be bothered, maybe my mind is so full of numbers and formulae that the words don’t string anymore,maybe I just prefer to read rather than write, maybe I have become just immune to everything that is happening around me that I have just begun to accept them and ceased to have an opinion about them. Maybe I have become too self centered to believe that my opinion needs to be heard and that it mattered that it was heard. Maybe I dont want my memories recorded,maybe when I do start writing about them, I cant stop and I dont know what to write and what to write.
I dont know right now, but I do want the blog revived.
Thanks to all who missed me
